Isn't there some unwritten rule that it's better late and decent than on time and dreadful?
Watercolour+pen is awesome but watercolour+pen+embroidery is like
I had something prepared from 2 weeks ago but I'm going to wing the description.
I read the short story by Jamaica Kincaid some time in 2013 and remember feeling how perfectly it reflected how I felt about myself.
"on Sundays try to walk like a lady and not like
the slut you are so bent on becoming;
don't sing benna in Sunday school;
you mustn't speak to wharf-rat boys, not even
to give directions" - Girl by Jamaica Kincaid.
At that time I felt like I was expected to be a certain way based on my gender, my religion, my race, my ethnicity, my [parents'] culture etc. I remember despising my race and considered myself red, blue, and yellow, instead of a mixture of all three. I despised my culture and because culture was so intertwined with religion, I despised my religion. I eventually outgrew it and understood where I was wrong.
And then some time ago, those feelings resurfaced.